Hi, it’s me. It has been a while, hasn’t it? I’m not really sure where the last several months have gone. To be honest, I’m not even sure how to come back to this blog, but I’m going to try. I will start by saying my silence has been intentional. I needed to step back for some time to focus, to compile my thoughts, and to come back fresh if or when I decided to return.
Life has been hard. Something I realized this summer is that there are times when even the most optimistic people, the most thought out plans, and the best intentions just don’t pan out. There are times when we reach a point that we need to put our foot down, speak up for ourselves, and accept that the way things were going just weren’t ok or healthy. So, I have taken several months to take care of family and myself. There is a lot I could say, but I won’t. I’m not ready to put it all out there, and I don’t know if I will ever be ready to. I have been healing, I have been seeing a therapist too – and I’m not ashamed of that, and no one should ever be anything less than proud of taking the initiative to seek out resources to help them in life.
What I will tell anyone who stumbles on my page, is that no one else can dictate our worth. No one else deserves to carry our value – not with their words, or their actions, or their promises, or their lies. We are responsible for our story, and we are worth being treated with love and respect and honor. Every day. Not just on the good ones. And no one should have to live with words or actions because “it isn’t THAT bad” or “they are JUST words” in someone else’s eyes. No one should ever feel unsure of what their day or month or year will bring at the hands of anyone else.
I’m in a much better place, and I thank God for his grace and answered prayers – even if I felt like they went unanswered for so long. Whether you believe in a higher power or not, I choose to. I have a lot of work and time to go, but I’m optimistic for new reasons. I am ready to keep putting one foot in front of the other to be the best mom and person I can be. No matter what it takes.
So, I’m back. I’m looking ahead. And you can join me on a new adventure if you want to.